Sunday, January 27, 2008

Holding Pattern

I've been in a holding pattern of sorts for about a year now. There are various things that need doing but they have to be done in a certain order so I have to wait and wait and then rush to do them when that time window opens. It's hurry up and wait, then hurry up and do it. And then wait some more.

So overall, it's just wait. Wait for the rest of my plans to either fall into place or fall apart.

Actually, so many things have happened in recent months that the phrase "fall apart" isn't valid any longer. I no longer have that same pre-conceived idea of what the future holds. In that sense, the plans fell apart months ago. That's life. It was a damned good plan, if you ask me, but apparently this wasn't the right time or something. So now I'm basically in a holding pattern, waiting for a sign of which direction to go. Or waiting for whatever is going to happen to happen because there are some things beyond my control. So I'm back to waiting. And waiting, and waiting....